That’s Not My God

So much from God
That I can no longer
A Christian, a Hindu, a Muslim
A Buddhist, a Jew.

The Truth has shared so much of
With me
That I can no longer call myself
A man, a woman, and angel
Or even pure Soul.

Love has
Hafiz so completely
It has turned to ash
And freed
Of every concept and image
My mind has ever known.

– Hafiz, ancient Sufi poet

The first (and only) time I ever said no to my mother, it was about religion. I was 8 years old and she wanted me to get baptized. I refused. When she asked me why, I said, “because that’s not my God”.

What she heard was that I was a Satan-worshiper. That single statement sparked an 11 year battle to save my soul by beating the devil out of me – literally…but, that’s a different story.

What I meant was something altogether different. I didn’t know how or why but I held a belief, strong and unwavering within my soul, that God was simply about love. The God they taught me about in church was angry, judgmental, and, in my opinion, a bit insecure. That was not my God!

However, like many of us, over time I chose to put my own truth on a shelf and live in a manner that conformed to the beliefs and mindset of those around me. I became a “born-again” Christian and got baptized when I was 13. I was completely faithful and, had you asked me about my decision at age 8, I would have told you I had been a foolish child and I just didn’t understand things back then. I held fast to that stance for 6 more years.

…and then I died.

The experience that I remember from my death shattered the concepts of everything I was being taught by the world. During it, I was bathed in love and acceptance and I recognized the same energy that I had connected with as a child. I also reached the personal conclusion that there was no way to encompass THAT power in a particular dogma or religion so, when I returned to life, I instantaneously went from devout Christian to firm believer in the energy and power of love – and nothing else. The new rules that I followed shifted to simply living as love on a regular basis.

Let me tell you, it ain’t easy! We live in a world divided; one filled with hatred and fueled by fear. Standing firm in the space of love takes courage and fortitude. It takes busting through fear, pretty much constantly, in order to face the world as an authentic individual.

I don’t talk often about my spirituality or the place it holds within my business but I figured if I’m doing a blog challenge with a group called Spiritual Badass, I should at least touch upon the concept of spirituality.:-)

Does my spirituality influence my business? Of course it does!

I think that everyone is influenced by their spirituality, or even by the choice to not believe in anything. So, to me, it goes without saying that my business is influenced by my spirituality. If you ask me what I do, my response would start with something like, “I help entrepreneurs bust through the fears that are keeping them stuck.” but I could just as easily hint at the spiritual influence and say, “I help entrepreneurs live in a space of love.” Tomayto, tomahto.

How about you? Leave me a comment and tell me what influence your spirituality has had on your work. (Play nicely!)


Like what you’re reading? Sign up for my periodic newsletter and get a FREE video, “The First 3 Steps to Overcoming Fear” [button link=”” size=”small” bgColor=”#ab3720″ target=”blank”]Yes, I’d love to get fear busting tips![/button]

Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial-ShareAlike 2.0 Generic (CC BY-NC-SA 2.0)

About Shayla

Shayla Logan is an Inspirational Speaker and Professional Fear Buster in San Diego, CA. Her end goal is to bring more love into the world by empowering heart-centered entrepreneurs to overcome the fears, doubts, and insecurities that would otherwise keep them stuck.
Tagged , , , . Bookmark the permalink.

8 Responses to That’s Not My God

  1. I LOVE this!! I didn’t know about my spirituality until about 3 years ago and now it’s all that I practice, in my life and my business. It is the best thing to live life from a place of love, rather than fear and hate. And I know this from experience. Life is an amazing thing, but we have to appreciate it and live it for what we are given daily.

    • Shayla says:

      Isn’t spirituality a funny thing? Do you do anything differently now that you’ve made that discovery?

  2. Tamay says:

    I love your connection! And that poem was spot on perfect…You’ll see it in a meme someday.

    • Shayla says:

      I love Hafiz and his poetry. He’s not as well known as Rumi, but I personally think he should be 🙂

  3. Wow! What a powerful post. Thank you for sharing so intimately. I don’t hold much truck with religion to be honest, but I do believe in love. The power and energy of love as a way to live your life is the only way to be happy. But as you say, it is not necessarily easy. Sometimes I think the universe is asking if we’re sure, but really it’s just a reflection, for me anyway, of where I am not being totally honest and loving in myself. It’s a constant work, and not something I’m always successful at, but I keep plugging away because I don’t feel there is any choice. If I’m not living in truth and love then I’m not really living. I loved your post! Andrea

    • Shayla says:

      Thanks, Andrea. I don’t consider myself to be anti-religion. More like anti-what people have turned their religion into. Many people think that living in a space of love is an airy-fairy New Age concept but it it really the basis of all organized religions. People just generally choose to focus more on the dogma than on the underlying energy.

  4. Mary Oquendo says:

    My biggest influence was my dog Marcus.